I did something different this weekend, I went to Sentosa on Sat.
Went as an outing but I followed as it's been so so long since I went to Sentosa.
It definitely has changed a lot.
The Siloso beach view was dissapointing as it was filled with ships and industrial plant emitting toxic smoke from its chimney.
It has undoubtedly become much more crowded as all parts of Singapore are now.
In this cramped society, SPACE is valuable, and so property price has flown up alarmingly.
A price that used to be able to fetch a condo is now the same price as a HDB.
I'd rather live in a less developed country but having space than in a First World Country but feeling constricted ALL the time.
But that's just me. People who look for higher achievement in the career world will no doubt have much more opportunity in Singapore.
Anywayyy...
My indecisive trait has worsen! I can't even decide simple things like whether to go back to ntu or to eat with my friends in vivo after the Sentosa outing.
So I got persuaded to stay.
Next, I wanted to go back after the meal but again couldn't decide and so I went to follow them to play board game.
Wanted to go back as I don't particularly like boardgame but stayed throughout in the end and went back at 12.
It was my first time catching the last bus!!!
I felt really bad for lying to my dad. He called while I was playing at 11pm and asked where I am. I told him I was on the way back and that I am with a group of people with girls. Then I ended by saying: "I am in my room, talk to you later dad!"
Reason: He will freak out/angry/nag/scold/reprimand etc etc if he knows I was the only girl, out so late, and in a fren's place. I guess he's reasonable and I agree that it's not good. BUT, I know my this group of friends are good people and that it's not I choose to be the only girl always!!!
Conversely, I enjoyed my time with my girl pal to Sentosa and I miss hanging out with GIRLSSSS.
And please stop taking me as one of the guys. =(
I know I wanted to see who remembers next week, but I am also scared that in the end everyone forgets. Just hope not.
Sunday, 26 September 2010
Friday, 24 September 2010
Injuries over injuries over injuries..
In the series of unfortunate events, I sprained my right ankle yesterday night during my night run.
I was crossing the road when there's a car approaching and it honked me.
I got shocked and when I reached the other side of the pavement, my right ankle turn side ways and I managed to not fall, but a sprained it still was.
I stood and tried to regain my composure. There were 3 girls walking by and one of them asked if I was okay as they saw me almost fall. I said I'm fine and continued walking. Actually my ankle hurts and I have to limp my way back to hall.
On the way back I met 2 more irritating incidents; one by a stupid taxi and another by those who stop me for stupid survey. >_<
My run to release stress just backfired.
My mood got worse but I still continued to stay this way.
Just let the days goes and I still wish I am a little different.
Maybe if I have more confidence in myself I wouldn't be so indecisive.
But it's in my nature and I wish there's something I could do to change myself.
And being treated like a guy is starting to get to me.
I am a girl and as much fun as I have hanging out with guy friends, I really wish there's a best gal-pal arnd in ntu for me. So that I don't feel too bullied at times, and someone I can talk to about "girl" stuff. hahaha.
But decisions are made these past weeks and I cannot go back.
As much regret I felt, I must go on.
Just not sure how now.
I was crossing the road when there's a car approaching and it honked me.
I got shocked and when I reached the other side of the pavement, my right ankle turn side ways and I managed to not fall, but a sprained it still was.
I stood and tried to regain my composure. There were 3 girls walking by and one of them asked if I was okay as they saw me almost fall. I said I'm fine and continued walking. Actually my ankle hurts and I have to limp my way back to hall.
On the way back I met 2 more irritating incidents; one by a stupid taxi and another by those who stop me for stupid survey. >_<
My run to release stress just backfired.
My mood got worse but I still continued to stay this way.
Just let the days goes and I still wish I am a little different.
Maybe if I have more confidence in myself I wouldn't be so indecisive.
But it's in my nature and I wish there's something I could do to change myself.
And being treated like a guy is starting to get to me.
I am a girl and as much fun as I have hanging out with guy friends, I really wish there's a best gal-pal arnd in ntu for me. So that I don't feel too bullied at times, and someone I can talk to about "girl" stuff. hahaha.
But decisions are made these past weeks and I cannot go back.
As much regret I felt, I must go on.
Just not sure how now.
Saturday, 18 September 2010
The Alcohol Effect.
I went to Timbre on Tuesday to celebrate Jy's b'day.
It was my first time and I love the ambience at that place.
The pizza was awesome! The live singer was good too.
I came late because we couldn't find the place.
I used my GPS and actually had fun trying to figure out the use of technology for once. =p
A bottle of whisky was ordered and shared among us with various mixers (coke, cranberry, sprite, green tea).
I loveee whisky cola! =)
Anw, I was feeling down that day and I felt worse coz I feel like I don't blend in with the company that night.
I can't join in the conversation and they don't really talk to me.
But it's alright, coz for once it's good to keep quiet at the side and drink.
Besides, gh was always quiet so I don't feel the need to make small talk with him (since he was sitting beside me at one point).
Teddy came when we were about to finish and ordered 2 bottles of champagne.
I don't really like that champagne coz it tasted more like beer to me.
I drank A LOT and I'm quite proud to say that I can hold my liquor as I didn't get drunk. I did get tipsy. I can feel my vision blurred and lagging. The world sways and swirl a little but I can still think clearly.
When I drank at home, my drunk symptom was talking incessantly.
On tueday, however, I was quiet as a mouse.
Mainly coz noone paid attention to me and so I'm happily savouring the alcohol in my own world.
Anw after the drink we walked by the river to the Reverse Bungee and the b'day girl took a ride. I think it's a very good way to celebrate a 21st by doing something daring and exciting. =)
The 4 of us girls shared a cab back. Reached hall at 2am plus. Took a shower lie down and fell asleep.
It was my first time and I love the ambience at that place.
The pizza was awesome! The live singer was good too.
I came late because we couldn't find the place.
I used my GPS and actually had fun trying to figure out the use of technology for once. =p
A bottle of whisky was ordered and shared among us with various mixers (coke, cranberry, sprite, green tea).
I loveee whisky cola! =)
Anw, I was feeling down that day and I felt worse coz I feel like I don't blend in with the company that night.
I can't join in the conversation and they don't really talk to me.
But it's alright, coz for once it's good to keep quiet at the side and drink.
Besides, gh was always quiet so I don't feel the need to make small talk with him (since he was sitting beside me at one point).
Teddy came when we were about to finish and ordered 2 bottles of champagne.
I don't really like that champagne coz it tasted more like beer to me.
I drank A LOT and I'm quite proud to say that I can hold my liquor as I didn't get drunk. I did get tipsy. I can feel my vision blurred and lagging. The world sways and swirl a little but I can still think clearly.
When I drank at home, my drunk symptom was talking incessantly.
On tueday, however, I was quiet as a mouse.
Mainly coz noone paid attention to me and so I'm happily savouring the alcohol in my own world.
Anw after the drink we walked by the river to the Reverse Bungee and the b'day girl took a ride. I think it's a very good way to celebrate a 21st by doing something daring and exciting. =)
The 4 of us girls shared a cab back. Reached hall at 2am plus. Took a shower lie down and fell asleep.
Monday, 13 September 2010
GROANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN...
A tiring day of classes from 830 till 630 with one hour break.
That break was supposed to be used for moving box but it's postponed till tomorrow.
Felt really guilty for troubling so many people.
Everyone has their busyness and I am disturbing them so much.
Sigh.
Sunday was a sad day for me.
I took the bus 157 to boon lay from across Mc Ritchie.
Across that nature park laid THOMSON 800, a place I call home for 4 years.
Thanks to a wrong move, I gave it up and it was since that moment that I resent Singapore so very much and can't wait to escape it whenever there's a chance.
有些事来不及，回不去。
而回忆太吵我睡不着。
Tonight, even when my body feel so tired and my brain so dead, I went to run.
I took steps; left foot, right foot...
Then I increase my pace under the saber-tooth moon and I suddenly gain strength.
As my cheek burns and sweats formed, all my stress dissipates into the still air of the night.
The solitary lap doesn't deter me, nor do I feel lonely.
It's what cheers me today...
Yet now I'm back in my squatting room and my mind is again at unrest.
Still, I'm gladly thankful for friends and supports.
Most of all Ophe for giving me a roof over my head.
Lucky you may call it that I still have a place to squat...
Persevering is tough.
Week3 and I'm as far behind as I could be.
The improvement that I achieved last sem, is it going to be destroyed just like that this sem?
So many things, so little time, so little energy left.
That break was supposed to be used for moving box but it's postponed till tomorrow.
Felt really guilty for troubling so many people.
Everyone has their busyness and I am disturbing them so much.
Sigh.
Sunday was a sad day for me.
I took the bus 157 to boon lay from across Mc Ritchie.
Across that nature park laid THOMSON 800, a place I call home for 4 years.
Thanks to a wrong move, I gave it up and it was since that moment that I resent Singapore so very much and can't wait to escape it whenever there's a chance.
有些事来不及，回不去。
而回忆太吵我睡不着。
Tonight, even when my body feel so tired and my brain so dead, I went to run.
I took steps; left foot, right foot...
Then I increase my pace under the saber-tooth moon and I suddenly gain strength.
As my cheek burns and sweats formed, all my stress dissipates into the still air of the night.
The solitary lap doesn't deter me, nor do I feel lonely.
It's what cheers me today...
Yet now I'm back in my squatting room and my mind is again at unrest.
Still, I'm gladly thankful for friends and supports.
Most of all Ophe for giving me a roof over my head.
Lucky you may call it that I still have a place to squat...
Persevering is tough.
Week3 and I'm as far behind as I could be.
The improvement that I achieved last sem, is it going to be destroyed just like that this sem?
So many things, so little time, so little energy left.
Friday, 10 September 2010
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