That's my nickname in msn and I'm surprised someone actually googled it.
Haha, FYI, this has been one of my favourite quote since sec. schl years.
Using it again kinda make me nostalgic of the past.
Eiiits, no more past, remember?! =p
Living in the present, looking forward to the future =S (or so I may hope).
I'm skipping 2 lectures today.
Woow, never guess I'm able to do that.
Peer influences maybe?
Been hearing everyone skipping things and I just never miss a day of school.
Plus, I'm really in a crappy mood.
This really has been a bad week.
Wasn't planning on skipping btw, blame it on that idiotic eff comm tutor of mine who cancels her class today.
Walked so far!!
So I'm pissed and decide to head home and eat..
Always hungry this day, I wonder why.. >_<
Lots of work to do, yet feeling so little motivation to do anything.
YOu has affected me where I least expected it.
Again, hating this.
Tuesday, 30 September 2008
Saturday, 27 September 2008
Touching
Firstly I would like to thank Sam from the deepest of my heart for today.
It has been a memorable day.
It's the first time someone care so much for my ehm*day to actually celebrate it in advance with me.
Secondly, it's the first time someone treat me and it make me feel so bad yet happy. =)
Not because I'm a cheapskate but the gesture really makes me feel like a lady =p, for once.
Hehe.
Thirdly, I didn't know that he's been paying attention to details and was shocked that he actually knows my favourite food, drink, colour...
It's quite a surprise from someone who usually forget a lot of stuff=D.
In return, I think I am quite a bad friend for not really knowing as much.
Anyway, I'm dying with curiosity to open ''it'', but I made a promise I'll open it on Thursday 00:00.
Not gonna break it I swear. =)
It has been a memorable day.
It's the first time someone care so much for my ehm*day to actually celebrate it in advance with me.
Secondly, it's the first time someone treat me and it make me feel so bad yet happy. =)
Not because I'm a cheapskate but the gesture really makes me feel like a lady =p, for once.
Hehe.
Thirdly, I didn't know that he's been paying attention to details and was shocked that he actually knows my favourite food, drink, colour...
It's quite a surprise from someone who usually forget a lot of stuff=D.
In return, I think I am quite a bad friend for not really knowing as much.
Anyway, I'm dying with curiosity to open ''it'', but I made a promise I'll open it on Thursday 00:00.
Not gonna break it I swear. =)
Happy Rush
Someone just called me,
I don't know why but I think that went well. =p
Maybe someone think otherwise though.
Hate emotional politics down to the core!!
ugh.
I don't know why but I think that went well. =p
Maybe someone think otherwise though.
Hate emotional politics down to the core!!
ugh.
Untitled
Yesterday, I thought after the many days that I came home just to sleep, it's a good idea to spend the whole day in my room, but not at all! It was terrible.
Second time I'm swearing that I'll never stay in room for whole day anymore.
That's why I've gotta go out today. Haha.
Oh my phone credit is diminishing so fast, how can I last till 4 Oct, the time the card expire?
Quiz.. Oh man, target for today.
Shall start computing later. Must, however much I hate it, I've got to learn it.
Aghhh.
Out of sight, Out of mind? =p
Second time I'm swearing that I'll never stay in room for whole day anymore.
That's why I've gotta go out today. Haha.
Oh my phone credit is diminishing so fast, how can I last till 4 Oct, the time the card expire?
Quiz.. Oh man, target for today.
Shall start computing later. Must, however much I hate it, I've got to learn it.
Aghhh.
Out of sight, Out of mind? =p
Friday, 26 September 2008
Yeuhh.
Today I went to sign TG.
3 years of my life signed away in less than 5 minutes.
Then, I went to study in H6 and then play pingpong in SRC.
Continued by a session of badminton in Hall3, just 3 of us.
Felt soOoOoOo inferior as the other 2 was really damn GoOd.
Felt sOoOoOoo sad, when am I gonna be able to play at their level.
Sigh * 17000x =(
Went to dinner then sat at the same old spot (twice including this time actually) haha.
There are ppl BBQ-ing, and so talked to them for a while b4 sitting down actually.=p
A bit sad, dunno why. I know why actually, just don't want to think about it.
Chienyi, Yeah, Thank's for reminding me, Guard myself against history repeating itself.
You mentioned "d'' is already enough to get me scared. Hoho.
3 years of my life signed away in less than 5 minutes.
Then, I went to study in H6 and then play pingpong in SRC.
Continued by a session of badminton in Hall3, just 3 of us.
Felt soOoOoOo inferior as the other 2 was really damn GoOd.
Felt sOoOoOoo sad, when am I gonna be able to play at their level.
Sigh * 17000x =(
Went to dinner then sat at the same old spot (twice including this time actually) haha.
There are ppl BBQ-ing, and so talked to them for a while b4 sitting down actually.=p
A bit sad, dunno why. I know why actually, just don't want to think about it.
Chienyi, Yeah, Thank's for reminding me, Guard myself against history repeating itself.
You mentioned "d'' is already enough to get me scared. Hoho.
Thursday, 25 September 2008
Cute incident. =p
This was an incident 2 days ago...
This was totally unexpected. I was just in front of my comp feeling sad coz I was having a bad hair day I guess. Then suddenly, Sam called. Yeah, and guess what, I suddenly become emo. Thinking of my school work. Haha. Yeap, before that I wasn't that moody at all. Then he called, and suddenly I realise I need to unburden myself from worrying thoughts that's been haunting me. So I started telling him what's worrying me, then I guess coz he just wake up, he wasn't quite listening. Then I got irritated and then.. Haha, I broke down, I actually cried, a few pathetic tears for my frustration. Then he was SHOCKED!! He was so shocked that he become ''fully awake'', to quote him. He said that's the first time he was so startled. =p
Oh my, I felt so bad. SoOorry!!
But thinking back I think the incident was super funny. =p
P.s: Still Singular, forever singular.
Single, NOT available =D.
This was totally unexpected. I was just in front of my comp feeling sad coz I was having a bad hair day I guess. Then suddenly, Sam called. Yeah, and guess what, I suddenly become emo. Thinking of my school work. Haha. Yeap, before that I wasn't that moody at all. Then he called, and suddenly I realise I need to unburden myself from worrying thoughts that's been haunting me. So I started telling him what's worrying me, then I guess coz he just wake up, he wasn't quite listening. Then I got irritated and then.. Haha, I broke down, I actually cried, a few pathetic tears for my frustration. Then he was SHOCKED!! He was so shocked that he become ''fully awake'', to quote him. He said that's the first time he was so startled. =p
Oh my, I felt so bad. SoOorry!!
But thinking back I think the incident was super funny. =p
P.s: Still Singular, forever singular.
Single, NOT available =D.
Tuesday, 23 September 2008
How?
Haaa, just came back from playing badminton+ volleyball in Hall3.
Satisfied. This morning gym and pingpong doesn't feel right, somehow.
Anyway, after morning exercise went home and bathe then went to LWN to study.
It was so sweet.. from the night before to be exact.
Yet now.. what is wrong?
I'm getting paranoid that history is going to repeat itself, like now... =(
Or maybe I'm too tired? Better get some rest.
Workload is heavy!!! oH NO!!!
MUST START doing smthng!! Haha.
>_<
Satisfied. This morning gym and pingpong doesn't feel right, somehow.
Anyway, after morning exercise went home and bathe then went to LWN to study.
It was so sweet.. from the night before to be exact.
Yet now.. what is wrong?
I'm getting paranoid that history is going to repeat itself, like now... =(
Or maybe I'm too tired? Better get some rest.
Workload is heavy!!! oH NO!!!
MUST START doing smthng!! Haha.
>_<
Crash & Burn...
OuOu, loving Savage Garden's crash & burn.!!
Here's the lyric:
" When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door
And you feel that you can't take anymore
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day
Because there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again..."
Devina, after aeons, I finally can answer ur question.
Hehe,
This, yes, this song will be the one I want sang to me =D.
Esp the part in bold. So touching, ain't it...?
Will it ever happen though?
=p
Here's the lyric:
" When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door
And you feel that you can't take anymore
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day
Because there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again..."
Devina, after aeons, I finally can answer ur question.
Hehe,
This, yes, this song will be the one I want sang to me =D.
Esp the part in bold. So touching, ain't it...?
Will it ever happen though?
=p
Monday, 22 September 2008
<'',lll<
Didn't manage to blog ytd. It was a Happy day I must say.
Play badminton from 9+ till 11+. So satisfying.
Then I went to CanA to wait for someone who was meeting me at 12 but just wake up at 12.15 =p. Haha. Yeah. I don't feel like telling the rest (trying to be secretive). Haha, just that went to JP and back to NTU. Just leave it at that. =)
Mood: TIRED! Super tired. Yeah, I can get tired apparently. Haha.
BUT, Happy, Happy happy. =D
Play badminton from 9+ till 11+. So satisfying.
Then I went to CanA to wait for someone who was meeting me at 12 but just wake up at 12.15 =p. Haha. Yeah. I don't feel like telling the rest (trying to be secretive). Haha, just that went to JP and back to NTU. Just leave it at that. =)
Mood: TIRED! Super tired. Yeah, I can get tired apparently. Haha.
BUT, Happy, Happy happy. =D
Sunday, 21 September 2008
Saturday.
Wake up at 8.30am, went to play badminton in Hall3. Roommate forgot her key, like I forgot mine the day b4. Today she went to Batam for the night. I'm all alone.
Anw, went to take a shower at 12.30 and leave hall at 1. Met Sam and took MRT to City Hall and talk at the MRT there while waiting for late Alvin as usual. Met Alvin at 3pm =S and Nic. 3 of us went to roam about town. Haha, was quite ok. Was a bit in a mood coz ignored esp by Nic. Irritating. But it's all good as Alvin sure knows how to cure my mood. haha. First time hanging out with Alvin at Spinneli.
Went to meet Chien Yi and Rillen in Clarke Quay. Then we went to eat at some restaurant, and well, they treat me. Haha, then... we went to a bar called " Highlanders " where we drink. Rillen ordered "Sex on the Beach", Chien Yi " Long Island Tea ", and I " Lychee Martini ". All taste alright for me. Haha. We stayed until 10 + before I hea home. Now here I am, fuzzy headed. What if I say the wrong thing, oh nooo, I think I already did. =S. Dead.
Anw, went to take a shower at 12.30 and leave hall at 1. Met Sam and took MRT to City Hall and talk at the MRT there while waiting for late Alvin as usual. Met Alvin at 3pm =S and Nic. 3 of us went to roam about town. Haha, was quite ok. Was a bit in a mood coz ignored esp by Nic. Irritating. But it's all good as Alvin sure knows how to cure my mood. haha. First time hanging out with Alvin at Spinneli.
Went to meet Chien Yi and Rillen in Clarke Quay. Then we went to eat at some restaurant, and well, they treat me. Haha, then... we went to a bar called " Highlanders " where we drink. Rillen ordered "Sex on the Beach", Chien Yi " Long Island Tea ", and I " Lychee Martini ". All taste alright for me. Haha. We stayed until 10 + before I hea home. Now here I am, fuzzy headed. What if I say the wrong thing, oh nooo, I think I already did. =S. Dead.
Friday, 19 September 2008
(",) ~
Ook, he was asleep, so he just replied. Haha, paranoid me again. Maybe I'm too tired. What's wrong with me today. Sigh, not in my right mind. Haha.
Summary of today : 4 Lectures. Clean my room, mop the floor and tidy up my things. Recess officially starting as of now. 1 week to catch up, not to play. Yea, mm, then, wanting to change to MSE. The more reason I have to work hard.! Thennn, SU Dinner, sucks. That's all. =D
Summary of today : 4 Lectures. Clean my room, mop the floor and tidy up my things. Recess officially starting as of now. 1 week to catch up, not to play. Yea, mm, then, wanting to change to MSE. The more reason I have to work hard.! Thennn, SU Dinner, sucks. That's all. =D
Today.
Yeshh.. I think it's happening again. It's ending b4 it start. I know the consequences, yet I fell for it again and again. I hate this. Yet there seems to be a force pulling me there and I can't resist. Pleaseeeeeee. Just this once, make it ok. Promise me it's alright PLEASE! =(
Thursday, 18 September 2008
quick update =[
Haha, yesterday was most satisfying.
Went to SRC for a run alone. 20 laps =p in 1hour!! Woohoo...=D
I have such a passion for running, honestly.
It's like I like the fact that I don't have to think, that my challenge is to beat myself.
Push myself to the outmost potential.
I like the feel of adrenaline rushing through my veins.
I love the feeling of sweat trickling down my face, taking my stress away with them.
I love it that I can trail into thoughts or imagination or just stay blank coz it doesn't matter.
All that matters is to keep moving forward.
Overcome that fatigue and you'll be at ease.
Today, went running again with Felix and friends again. 11laps only though for 36mins. =(
Then... Haha... dun feel like telling the rest as someone is not replying my sms.
Starting to get paranoid. >_< hikshiks..
Went to SRC for a run alone. 20 laps =p in 1hour!! Woohoo...=D
I have such a passion for running, honestly.
It's like I like the fact that I don't have to think, that my challenge is to beat myself.
Push myself to the outmost potential.
I like the feel of adrenaline rushing through my veins.
I love the feeling of sweat trickling down my face, taking my stress away with them.
I love it that I can trail into thoughts or imagination or just stay blank coz it doesn't matter.
All that matters is to keep moving forward.
Overcome that fatigue and you'll be at ease.
Today, went running again with Felix and friends again. 11laps only though for 36mins. =(
Then... Haha... dun feel like telling the rest as someone is not replying my sms.
Starting to get paranoid. >_< hikshiks..
Wednesday, 17 September 2008
Things are looking up.
I can say things are getting better, i.e. I'm getting less emo.
More cheerful these days despite many worries still. =)
Wanna say Thanks to all the new friends I made here.
You all brighten my life.
Take away the dull by colouring up my life with your presence and your concern. Maybe I'm still invisible, still not outstanding at all. However, after about 2 years, I can say I am happy. Satisfied with what I am.
No longer hating my existence. =)
No longer hating myself for being me.
I can finally say goodbye to all my past.
Beautiful or not, I am moving on. I don't long for the past anymore.
Most importantly I'm no longer waiting for all my old friends to come back anymore.
I can safely say I can let go, it's such a big relief.
The past can't hurt me anymore.
Though I feel so nostalgic at times, I know 已经回不去了。
But I still treasure all those who stood by me through my roughest time and understand me so much. As such, I want to thank ChienYi for her unwavering friendship, Sam for the listening ear and the comfort and the patience for my EMo days. Steph, for your teaching, you company, your advice and your help. =)
Lastly, LOVE you ALL. I'm brighter, I'm happier, pressure and stress, I believe I can defeat you!!
=p
More cheerful these days despite many worries still. =)
Wanna say Thanks to all the new friends I made here.
You all brighten my life.
Take away the dull by colouring up my life with your presence and your concern. Maybe I'm still invisible, still not outstanding at all. However, after about 2 years, I can say I am happy. Satisfied with what I am.
No longer hating my existence. =)
No longer hating myself for being me.
I can finally say goodbye to all my past.
Beautiful or not, I am moving on. I don't long for the past anymore.
Most importantly I'm no longer waiting for all my old friends to come back anymore.
I can safely say I can let go, it's such a big relief.
The past can't hurt me anymore.
Though I feel so nostalgic at times, I know 已经回不去了。
But I still treasure all those who stood by me through my roughest time and understand me so much. As such, I want to thank ChienYi for her unwavering friendship, Sam for the listening ear and the comfort and the patience for my EMo days. Steph, for your teaching, you company, your advice and your help. =)
Lastly, LOVE you ALL. I'm brighter, I'm happier, pressure and stress, I believe I can defeat you!!
=p
Wew
Today, I felt very vexed or I don't know how else to put it. Just don't feel like eating. At all. It's a good thing right? From morning I've been walking here and there for the change of sureties. It's really driving me nuts, this tuition grant thing. Hikshiks...
Then Computing Class for 2 hrs, though it feels like eternity. Then straight away Eff Comm Project Meeting. Next, Eff Comm Tut followed by 2 lects back to back. Hm, wasn't listening at all as I was such in a bad mood loh. So during Computing Lect I took out my Ipod and listen to it with Felix. Haha. Then, after lect straight away went to SRC and run the track, 6 rounds only. Then Ping-Pong. Guess who I saw on the way back? After, went for Usher meeting for ICN. After that then On Air with Shin Chan & Dustin. Lol. How much more packed can it get? Haha.
Tired. Think stop here first. Huhu..
Then Computing Class for 2 hrs, though it feels like eternity. Then straight away Eff Comm Project Meeting. Next, Eff Comm Tut followed by 2 lects back to back. Hm, wasn't listening at all as I was such in a bad mood loh. So during Computing Lect I took out my Ipod and listen to it with Felix. Haha. Then, after lect straight away went to SRC and run the track, 6 rounds only. Then Ping-Pong. Guess who I saw on the way back? After, went for Usher meeting for ICN. After that then On Air with Shin Chan & Dustin. Lol. How much more packed can it get? Haha.
Tired. Think stop here first. Huhu..
Tuesday, 16 September 2008
& it starts all over again.
Just as I told myself to get out of this emotional mess. I somehow get sucked in again.
Told myself not gonna let history repeat itself. What is it with me? Do I always get the wrong singnal? Ha? What should I do? I'm not the optimistic kind. When I saw a clear signal then I'll take it in. But somehow, is that the reason for a person to toy with me? My feelings. Totally uncared for. You came into my life easily and you go easily. I don't matter at all. Give me all these mixed signal. What was I suppose to do? Heartbreak again. You have someone, don't come near me giving me all this hope that something is going to happen. Coz this is heartbreaking. And I'm aching.
Told myself not gonna let history repeat itself. What is it with me? Do I always get the wrong singnal? Ha? What should I do? I'm not the optimistic kind. When I saw a clear signal then I'll take it in. But somehow, is that the reason for a person to toy with me? My feelings. Totally uncared for. You came into my life easily and you go easily. I don't matter at all. Give me all these mixed signal. What was I suppose to do? Heartbreak again. You have someone, don't come near me giving me all this hope that something is going to happen. Coz this is heartbreaking. And I'm aching.
Sunday, 14 September 2008
Mmm...
Stress! Oh man, Physics test tomorrow! So why am I here blogging? I need space. Need time off. Lol. I need time to stop having this feeling. I think it's another infatuation. So STOP it Diana! STOP it, GO STUDY! aghhh.
I think I...
Today, met someone. Well, can't seem to find out why, this feeling is here. A feeling of longing, wanting, though I know. Gotta stop myself, not gonna fall for anyone, anywhere, anymore no more. Been hurt way too many times. Mixed signals, emotional politics, enough of it. But, when feeling comes, what you gonna do? =p Somebody tell me pls. =)
Saturday, 13 September 2008
Girl Like Guy.
The other day, which is on Friday Physics Lect. As usu. I was sitting next to Felix and I got an sms from Delli. The sms was funny as Delli was imitating how Novia usually sms and so I laugh alone like crazy person. Hehe. Then Felix asked me who was that and so I told him Delli. Felix asked me who is that? But before I answer, he continues.. "...doesn't matter, it sure is from a guy again, you only have 1 girl friend anyway."
This got me thinking is that true. Sadly, it is. Then I told Felix, 'yeah, 90% of my friends are guys, however, it's not like I'm popular amongst the guys. On the contrary, I am ''one of the guys''.'
To say I don't like this situation, I'd be lying. I love hanging out with guys because I feel comfortable and there's definitely no girl-drama which can be emotionally exhausting. On the other hand, guy tends to be overly insensitive. Especially if they take me as one of them, no special treatment, which honestly I'd love to have. =)
I wonder what quality of me that makes me able to blend in with guys and yet not having them like me like what normally should happen? Simply put, it's all purely platonic. Sad. Not sad?
Hmmm, think single. =p
This got me thinking is that true. Sadly, it is. Then I told Felix, 'yeah, 90% of my friends are guys, however, it's not like I'm popular amongst the guys. On the contrary, I am ''one of the guys''.'
To say I don't like this situation, I'd be lying. I love hanging out with guys because I feel comfortable and there's definitely no girl-drama which can be emotionally exhausting. On the other hand, guy tends to be overly insensitive. Especially if they take me as one of them, no special treatment, which honestly I'd love to have. =)
I wonder what quality of me that makes me able to blend in with guys and yet not having them like me like what normally should happen? Simply put, it's all purely platonic. Sad. Not sad?
Hmmm, think single. =p
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