Aim and Motivation

Time check, officially been working for 6 months!

Aim: to be able to work for one year first before deciding on what to do next.

Motivation: must start to realise all my travel dreams starting from Korea in August, Australia next, maybe cruise to nearby island and aiming for Europe next year! It's a must!!!
Besides, I have to get better at planning because every holiday I had I end up unhappy.
Starting from August trip, learn from mistake, do better! MUST enjoy myself.
Don't care about the people.

Although I am not interested in Korea at all, well, I can only find friends that are interested to go there.
Another note, must be more hardworking in finding people to travel with that has same objective.
See I like scenery, hiking and all nature stuff, but I also like shopping.
But most of my friends are city people who only love to shop, and eat and walk in the city.
To me, what's the diff with Singapore? They even like to take MRT longer to "experience local life". Huh? I don't understand what they are thinking.
But the no.1 thing that cannot be compromise is that I will NEVER ever want to stay in a hostel or those kind of similar places. NEVER, especially in Asia.
Never mind, in the spirit of getting more happy, I shall try to ignore those type of people and make my own list of where to go and what to do.
So excited!

Ignorant much?

Having a boyfriend/ girlfriend doesn't justify you demeaning your friends.

I don't understand what's the big deal if you are in a relationship. It doesn't give you the right to mistreat your friend in the name of putting your girl/boy friend first. That's just pure non-sense.

Just think that when a relationship goes sour, who do you turn to? Your friends. Then during lovey-dovey season, you make excuses all in the name of love? That's crap to me! You save up so you can spend it on your girl/boyfriend, all the while asking your friends to help you save money. I really don't agree.. Yet many of my close friends exhibit this.

Stop using relationship as an excuse for being a jerk! It's true there are differences in priority when you are in a relationship. I don't mean you don't change. But there are certain boundaries that should not be crossed. You should respect your friend and not treat them like second class citizen.

Sigh, time has truly change. People change and relation drift. It is just so annoying to see that you forget people you went through thick and thin with in just a second. 

I guess over the years I have gone numb. I no longer feel the same kind of sadness of losing a friend like last time. I just feel angry, irritated and annoyed. But it is easier to deal with than sadness. I can start to ignore and quickly accept the fact that this person has change for the worse. Then easily cut off him/ her from my world, coz they are not worth it. 

From there I try to work on to be a better person, and make them regret (if they still have a conscience) coz they won't find another fren like me. 

Post - Sundown

Exactly a week ago, I did my final full marathon! THE SUNDOWN MARATHON!!
It was kinda surprising..
I was very nervous, having previous experience (2 years ago) where it seems so difficult to accomplish..
Where every step after 30 km is unbearable.
Well, this year, I actually manage to jog non-stop throughout the 5 hours and 30 minutes that I took to complete the race.
Runners will know that maintaining pace is more difficult than sprint and walk, though the latter usually produce better timing.
That is why although my timing only improve by 30 minutes compared to 2 years ago, I am super happy with the journey.
It was not a disappointing route as well, especially the run around F1 pit towards the Gardens by the Bay, and then opposite MBS where you can see the reflection of the Singapore flyer on the small lake/river..
=)
So glad that all my training paid off.
Was surprised I was able to do it this well considering I feel weaker, and stress on the job.
Maybe I took care of myself the week before marathon and I was feeling okay.

I remember feeling so nervous before the start-off that I thought I can't even do 10K.
But persevereeeeeeeeeeeee.........
=)
When I reached 37 km I wanted to stop so badly..
But I keep reminding myself of 2 years ago..
Stopping only slows you down, and that once you stop you won't be able to run continuously again..
Plus, it hurts more when you walk..
So I keep pushing myself..
I was afraid to push myself beyond and collapse..
But I feel fine, my mind is still clear..
Keep repeating to myself "the last 10K is all about your mental strength.. and tired is only a state of mind.."
Haha, it work though.. I manage to encourage myself not to stop..
Not forgetting my major contributor for the success; my iPod NANO!
It was worth it.. Buying it and preparing the playlist. =)
Ahh, it was a good run. =)

But now my right knee hurts suddenly. =(
6 days after..
I wonder why. =(


Next highlight in June is ofcoz Jay Chou's concert.
Having loved him since Sec Schl years, this is definitely a dream come true to finally be able to watch him live.
He's good!!! All the show flow nicely with lotsa entertainment of different kind..
There is even a mime clown and an acapela..

BUT, the show was on Thursday and I was tired of work, and there was work again the next day..
Not enjoying to the max.
Plus, watching alone is no good, especially if the person beside you aren't excited enough..
Then you feel like a fool getting worked up..

Well, well!
I got a surprise today.. I am going to watch him again!!!!
In his final night here.. hehe..
The ticket price is super expensive..
But I figured I don't know when else he will be coming here..
It could be like the last time, more than 5 years?
Then I have to fly some where else to catch him..
And none of my friends are crazy about him, so it will be impossible to go alone in other country.
Let's hope with better sitting, and better rest, I can truly enjoy him. =)

Last night before the Day

Oh no, oh no, oh no!!

I can't do it!!! Nooooo >_<

So scary.. With all the bad things happening at work, I don't have a peace of mind..

Tired too.

Not really having the right emotion as well. 

Stressssss!!!! Aghhhh!!!!