Prof Comm OVER!

Happy!

But I'm sick, and I have EngSoc presentation tmrw morning and I'm most unprepared now. T_T

90s music keeping my spirit up.

Love Love Love it.!

One last surprise for my Birthday!! I got a stuffed toy..

A MOUSE!! SO~ CUTE!!!

Even though it was more than a week after my birthday, she still bother to give me the mouse..

I was so touched coz I didn't actually give her any present for her b'day...

Moving on from that..

I had a wild weekend..

After CA, I did FYP and so I decided to give myself a break..

But it's not a very good idea as I feel very guilty andddddd, now it's hard to get back to studying..

I need to BUCK UP~!! >_<

Friday I played WII in SAC with Teguh, Tomi, and 2 of Teguh's fren.

It was fun ^_^

Saturday I went to IMM for dinner, only to eat subway. T__T

After that went to watch Kumar at Holland V's Three MOnkey Bar.

It was definitely a new experience for me to watch a stand-up comedian..

I was skeptical about it at first coz I didn't know all the people except the one who asked me to go..

And I didn't think Kumar is funny..

But hey, it's not bad at all..

Got a few laughs and it was FUN! =)

Really thankful for the invite...

Sunday, went to city to watch Real Steel!

Bought a new top =)

Drank GONG CHA! =D

And now it's already Tuesday and I haven't catch up as yesterday I was feeling unwell.

Probably due to lack of rest during the weekend..

And alsoo... I got thinking...

Matter of the hearts...

I think of the pasts and well, I am always a confused girl..

Better not go down the rabbit hole again by thinking about all that..

A week has past but my birthday seems to last =)

Throughout the week friends who forgot gave me their belated wishes.

It's alright, belated doesn't mean I'm forgotten. =p

Even more amazing was yesterday night..

I GOT MY WISH!!! My Afros surprised me yesterday!!!

It was really heartfelt. I Love them all.. =)

And the fun was SO FUN!!!

First time in my life I got bullied! haha, make all the MAE people jealous coz they miss their chance to bully me on the day.

AHHHHHHH..... I am contented now.

BEST BIRTHDAY!

Like Alvin said.. "Why must birthday be the same? Every year it will be different coz it'll be better."

And you know what? It indeed is =)

I LOVE YOU AFRODO.

I guess I found my motivation to keep my spirit up no matter what!

Them and my friends who made this year's birthday so special.

The Milestone

These days I hung out a lot with my MAE peeps.

They are all nice people..

Always so ready to help and to listen to my complains.

Tomi, Malindo, Teguh, Felix..

I think I take them for granted..

I always show my mood but they're always so nice to me.. =)

I was really touched by my birthday celebration in the TV lounge with Felix, Enrico, Tomi, Malindo, Odel, Ophe, Riesta, Iva, Teguh, Aristo, Handy and Mario! =)

I was overwhelmed by my disappointment that I forgot to feel so grateful for them ..

They bought me a cake.. Waited in front of the lift.. Felix even got me to JP to "study" and arrange the thing..

Their testimonials were touching.. I welled up a bit, especially at Teguh's one.. Coz he seldom say about me, he is a very introvert kind of guy, and what he said made me feel that actually all this while he care for me and did observe me somehow..

Well, what he said was that I'm hardworking (although I'm not). He say that I'm willing to learn, and that he say I panic too much. And that if I was actually calm, I actually could do a lot of things... This is pretty much what everyone says about me..

Need to start thinking about the future... Work and direction of life, purpose of life..

Felix said I tend to overweight the negative and underweight the positive. He say that I wasn't being fair.. That if I want to be so extreme about the negativity, I should be that much happy for the positive..

Ophe and Mario think I always take a small comment to heavily and that I shouldn't really live on other people's view..

But the highlight this birthday was that card and the voice notes at 00:00 on 2nd October.

Devina's company was also missed. I love my bestie no matter what.. I just hope she treasures our friendship the same way.. =)

All in all, this year was a blast.. Lunch with 2 of my best friends at a nice restaurant.. Nice cake..

Dinner with NTU peeps. I really appreciate their presence..

And although there're so many people who forgot my birthday, I am taking it in stride. And still feel glad for the belated wish that I receive. =)

I can't shake of this feeling of utter disappointment...

Can someone please just tell me why..

If not, please tell me WHY I have this kind of personality..

That can't let a simple thing gooo..

Making a single thing a BIG deal, a VERY big deal.. =(

In the end I lose out more..

And regret comes after...

But I'm really sadddd.....

Sobs2..

And September has gone, and yet I felt the same.

I longed for days when I can smile and feel so carefree..

Now all I can think of is stress, and what if I cannot make it?

I don't know how to clear my head..

I am so worried for my assignments:

1. FYP - no progress

2. MP4012 Quiz Friday - No Clue

3. EngSoc Presentation Friday -No Clue

4. Logistic Quiz Monday - No Clue

5. Fluid Quiz Wednesday - No Clue

WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING? >_<

I can't seem to focus and MUG....... GAH!!!!!!!!!!

I want to cry and hope my tears can dissolve the whole world..

Still sick. Headache, cramps, feeling weak all of the time..

Really not a great time of my life right now..

I got a feeling it's gonna be a very miserable day Sunday..

I hate it when I get ignored completely like the other day on the whatsapp group chat..

That's why I just leave the group.. Maybe I'm perceived as petty, or whatever, but friends shouldn't be so uncaring.. That's how I feel..

Sigh, tired of everyone, everything...

Nobody I can ever count on..

No one to ever rely on...

I have lost my motivation once again.

Oh man, what's going to happen to me.

September's not my month!