Come what may - for thermo and kinematics.
Been in holiday mood since Friday, slept 12 hrs on Thurs night, and have been sleeping a lot since then.. I forgot to tell my body it's not payback time yet!!! WE (as in my body and me) have 2 more papers!!! Tho' it feels like holiday and I keep thinking of gg back even though it's a mere 8 days away, it feels like forever.

Wasted 3 days coz I watch finish the whole 黑糖玛奇朵. amazing huh? my watching ability(I don't think it's something to be proud of). =p

Holiday plans!!!

1. SWIM!!! Itching to SWIM!!!!
2. MOVIES in CINEMA!! Apparently my voyeuristic nature is not quenched by the many hours streaming online.. =p
3. EAT HOME COOKED MEAL!!!! SICK, SICK SUPER SICK of canteen FOOD!!!! I want that soup my brother makes!!! I miss apples, I miss my own cooking actually anddddddd, actually I miss my mom's cooking the most.. But I don't know when can I ever eat her cooking again =(.
4. MUST practice piano again..!!!
5. Do something about hair.?
6. SHOPPPP!!!! I want to dress nicely and stop steven from saying "got wash ur clothes or not?" "why everyday wear the same thing?" LOL. FYI, I always wash my clothes, but I wear those few clothes again and again coz I can't be bothered.. And it's comfortable.. =p
7. GET rid of my pimples!!!!! I got so many pimples ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!! I don't know how but step 1 should be fresh clean air in my beloved home!!! =)

8. Finally, ofcoz, lose weight.. haha, it's constantly on my mind, my weight that is... >_<

Oh no, wth am I doing, EXAMS not over... WAKE UP DIANA!!!!!!
STOP dreaming of holiday. 2 MORE PAPERSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!
PANIC!!!!! =S

I know that at this time where I'm playing chasing with time, I shouldn't think of anything other than sine, cosine, hyperbolic, impedance, konnichiwa, blackhole, otto-cycle and slider-crank. Yet the other day I was fb-ing, and I click on the fren's icon which I never do and I realise she's actually back.!! So I click and saw her wall... to be completely honest I felt sad, really2 depressed. That day was after the first disastrous paper.. I told you my somehow calmness need just a little emotional push to throw me off the edge. So then I saw our another fren and guess what? She wrote on her wall even though our mutual fren doesn't really update fb so often.. ANW, I was so tired and I can't sleep (yesh, just because of this small minute thing). So I suddenly have the urge to talk to someone, and I sms-ed her, and she called and I cried and she was so nice that she wanted to come over and in the end I went to her room. Can't say she's very symphathetic abt my situation. Rather, I got scolded. haha, but it's good. She sounded like my another fren in US that I miss terribly too. Blatant and both have the same carefree spirit that I'll die to have. How do I stop caring? Be emotionless? Life'll sure be 77777777x easier for me. I'm constantly burdening myself with nonsense. Yesh, nonsense. Like this panic attack I have when I can't study... I really can't wait for this week to be over.......

I miss my frens.. bad timing huh?
People are saying "don't think so much diana.."
"relax, diana.."

Strangely my only use of Hp is to listen to radio these days, haha, and I kindda like it this way.
Before when I was tracked every single moment by sms and getting called when I don't reply promptly or have to face his anger if I don't pick up his call, I detest the sound of the incoming msg or call. I'm glad for the quiet of my hp for once. It's a first!!! for everyone else who used to sms with me, once it stopped, I'll feel loss and start missing them... =)

this morning I went to lwn at arnd 830 and the library has yet to open. The scene that awaits made me stiffle a laugh.. People are swarming the entrance and from the overhead bridge people are rushing like ants towards lwn. When the door opens, some literally ran inside...

Anyway 2days and I'm still so so so weak in mom.
I know this calmness I feel now will explode uncertainly anytime now like a time-bomb.
I can calm my self telling myself -come what may- and panicking out of my mind the next day.
I hope I can go over this exam smoothly. As in without the drama of over fear and over anxious.

I listened to chinese songs today!!! I quite miss it I must say..
ESP 杰伦, 我的最爱. 他的歌有个魅力我无法解释. 听了已后,有种熟悉的味道, 好像我认识他一样. 也...有种舒畅的感觉. 也许是因为每次考试前我都会听一下他的歌. 伤心时听了他的抒情歌. 跑的时侯听他的快歌, 开心时听了他的有些甜蜜的歌. 最后有了眷恋的感觉....让我回想到几个美好的回忆...

=)=)

it's saturday!! I decide I need to relax coz I've been panicking since I wake up and it's no good to study in that condition. One, nothing goes in, and two, I'll be even more stressed. So I decide to write on my blog, it's soothing me.. =)

What's been happening lately is nothing much really. Spending so much time at Level5 that I need a break away from that place. Hence my decision to stay in my room during this hot day. Not in the mood for lwn today even though I really need the aircon.

It's not reallly all bad though this sem.. I never regret my decision in coming to MAE. I mean, the subjects are tough, and the workload is unbelievable, but I just think it's better than year1. Believe it or not, the most important benefit of MAE for me is that it's all in north spine. Haha, I love the north spine! =D

On thursday outside LKC I bumped into SH, and it's quite a surprise, haven't seen and talked to him in a long time. He kindda comment on my looks, like how I now got pimples (so embarrassing). But he did say that I look thinner..=D

Had lunch with boss, hui, jy, eric and 2 VIPs on friday. Boss acted so weird, he suddenly became so quiet. I think hui is really a very good fren for arranging that lunch. =)
Then came jap. I really2 screwed up both listening and oral I don't know why!!! I have trouble concentrating, really! I just can't seem to listen properly, my mind's somewhere else. I miss out what the radio was saying and during oral I can't seem to process the question asked even though I really2 think I can do it. Maybe I put too much hope in this subject. I know for core I will never ever be gd at it, well at most average. But for language, I somehow feel like I'm good at it. I was hoping for A. Sigh, that hope's down the drain now.. and oh well, it's just hard to accept it, my perfectionist side maybe. Didn't know I still have it since I came to NTU. Getting Cs already make me so happy. lol.

I had a nightmare yesterday!! I even woke up at 4 am because of it. It felt so real and it's not the first time I had this dream. Is my subconscious mind trying to tell me something?

Well, I think I'll go and search for some movies, haha, watching is the best medicine and past- time for me =p.

What the hell is wrong with me. Lately, I've sort of vent my anger on everyone, or in a lighter term, speak out my mind. I mean, I sort of spontaneously speak what I feel without caring that I'll offend the person in concern. I don't mean for this change but somehow maybe it's good. If you're my real friend, I guess you'll hear what I say instead of shun me because of this.
I mean, some of the things MAYBE I say because I'm in a bad mood, but mostly, they are true words that I want to convey yet couldn't in the past in the fear of offending people.

For no apparent reason, I told my life background story to a certain someone. I didn't mean to tell my story, but at that moment, somehow when asked, I don't feel like hiding it. And I sort of think that I'm able to trust that person, but well, people have a way of disappointing me.

HoOked, on Gaga, Bad Romance..
Can't wait for her new album.
Anw, I was quite surprised to know that A likes Lady Gaga too!!
We finally had our lunch on Sat, with nic..
Full of army stories all the way, nic seems to be enjoying ns tho'.
Saw so many artists that day.
Anw, my feet feels very2 sore from all the walk.
Maybe it's because I'm flat-fOoted(almost), I heard those with flat foot get tired easily.
hmmm, maybe that's why I can't stand for too long, my feet will ache very very badly.

On Fri I was upset, was such in a bad mood, don't feel like talking and was very irritated.
Then, lunch with frens cheered me up a little.
Boss also played 杰伦's song which surprisingly has a positive effect too. ^_^
But it was not until after maths tut that boss started to talk abt incest and I'm back to my normal self. I really don't know how of all the topics in the world, incest comes about to be the topic of the day. anw, I feel glad that boss tried to cheer me up. He shows what a GOOD fren he is, though it's not necessary for me to say. He alrd self-proclaim that title when he asked me to write in his fb that he's such a GOOD fren. =p

Today I fell asleep again in the afternoon!!! CRAZY. Nap makes me have such a bad headache. Even I can't seem to run well =(.

I think my english is deteriorating.
and studying jap makes me realise that chinese is still the best, I've decided I won't take jap2, I don't quite like the language, but I still didn't SU it.
I really didn't SU anything this sem, following eric's footstep.
hahaha..

而我已经分不清，你是友情，还是错过的爱情。