Feeling much better after yesterday..
Played Saboteur till 2 AM in SAC.. =)
It was as if it's after-exam celebration!!
Felt super guilty about it and waas planning to study the whole day but I am so sleepy now..
Slept at 4 and woke up at 9..
Need some songs with very nice beats to keep me awake!!
Can't rely on coffee coz I won't be able to sleep if I drink it now..
HOAHMMMMM~
Saturday, 27 November 2010
Friday, 19 November 2010
It's been a gruelling week because I AM SICK!
First time this semester.
An ordinary set of cold; headache, sore throat and blocked nose..
I thought I got better on Wednesday but Thursday night it got worse and today too..
Still not fit enough to run..
I feel so weakk!!
But luckily NO fever!!
So I still can go to class and well do other activities.
I got cheered up today!! ^_^
YEAY... First, Jy was cheery today! And it cheered me!!
She also cared for me, ask me to eat from the soup stall..
Then met many of my Indo MAE friends in ISCF=)
Not only MAE but others from EEE and MSE that I seldom see..
It's nice to talk with them, just stand there and talk nonsense abt Philip!
HAHA, the favourite topic amongst every culture and nation..
As in my Singaporean friends talk abt him, my Indo friends talk abt him..
He's such an interesting guy I must say.. =p
And I start to not care about who cares about me.. ^_^
Finally! Hope breeds disappointment remember?
And I can stop hoping now, somehow, for the moment.
Maybe because I'm too stressed now, no time to think abt this petty stuff..
Ohhh, and a great distraction is PIANO!
I suddenly have a craving to play!
And I did, and I think it's helping me.....
YESH, I am not giving up on piano yet..
I know I am very bad at it, but I must persevere, I just wanna play!!
And you can guess who's my motivation right?
YEsh, that's right... It's Jay Chou... ('',)v
Let's make this weekend brighter than last...
First time this semester.
An ordinary set of cold; headache, sore throat and blocked nose..
I thought I got better on Wednesday but Thursday night it got worse and today too..
Still not fit enough to run..
I feel so weakk!!
But luckily NO fever!!
So I still can go to class and well do other activities.
I got cheered up today!! ^_^
YEAY... First, Jy was cheery today! And it cheered me!!
She also cared for me, ask me to eat from the soup stall..
Then met many of my Indo MAE friends in ISCF=)
Not only MAE but others from EEE and MSE that I seldom see..
It's nice to talk with them, just stand there and talk nonsense abt Philip!
HAHA, the favourite topic amongst every culture and nation..
As in my Singaporean friends talk abt him, my Indo friends talk abt him..
He's such an interesting guy I must say.. =p
And I start to not care about who cares about me.. ^_^
Finally! Hope breeds disappointment remember?
And I can stop hoping now, somehow, for the moment.
Maybe because I'm too stressed now, no time to think abt this petty stuff..
Ohhh, and a great distraction is PIANO!
I suddenly have a craving to play!
And I did, and I think it's helping me.....
YESH, I am not giving up on piano yet..
I know I am very bad at it, but I must persevere, I just wanna play!!
And you can guess who's my motivation right?
YEsh, that's right... It's Jay Chou... ('',)v
Let's make this weekend brighter than last...
Thursday, 11 November 2010
Wednesday, 10 November 2010
Tuesday, 9 November 2010
Sunday, 7 November 2010
Back to Stupid Sunday!!
For those who don't know, I dislike Sunday, I don't know why but I do.
Never thought about it much because in Bandung, Sunday = Sunday run which is a plus.
Today I am reminded why I don't like this day.
Spent the day floating, drifting like a lost soul.
Want to study, nothing goes in...
Want to do other thing, cannot coz I'll feel guilty not studying.
Back to the same pattern again as last sem and the sem before.
In the end ate too much and I ran to ease the guilt.
Guilty for spending too much money recently too..
Aghh, enough with the guilt.. I'm torturing myself!!
Another week has gone, don't want tomorrow to come.
My sadness is yet to cease.
I just want to curl up somewhere far and hide myself from human civilisation.
Never thought about it much because in Bandung, Sunday = Sunday run which is a plus.
Today I am reminded why I don't like this day.
Spent the day floating, drifting like a lost soul.
Want to study, nothing goes in...
Want to do other thing, cannot coz I'll feel guilty not studying.
Back to the same pattern again as last sem and the sem before.
In the end ate too much and I ran to ease the guilt.
Guilty for spending too much money recently too..
Aghh, enough with the guilt.. I'm torturing myself!!
Another week has gone, don't want tomorrow to come.
My sadness is yet to cease.
I just want to curl up somewhere far and hide myself from human civilisation.
I am down with persistent emo-ness.
But tonight, there's happy hour!!
I was a bit sceptical about going out tonight coz I am not in the mood for awkward convo..
Tired I guess..
But it turns out it's not the way I imagined it...
Both of them cheered me up so much!
We talked and laughed over dinner until the restaurant was about to close.
The time passed so fast and if it's not for the last bus, I would've spent more time with them..
Never mentioned any past, but they're the one who reminisce...
They take me back to the past where the 4 of us were in the same class.
Sitting at the last row feeling sleepy after recess.
Just like in sec1 when 3 of us went out, after 8 years we still can click..
I need them but they're no longer my best friends, we no longer meet everyday, just once a year maybe..
and tonight I miss all of them coz I hate where I am and what I'm feeling.
Can't seem to get past it. =(
But tonight, there's happy hour!!
I was a bit sceptical about going out tonight coz I am not in the mood for awkward convo..
Tired I guess..
But it turns out it's not the way I imagined it...
Both of them cheered me up so much!
We talked and laughed over dinner until the restaurant was about to close.
The time passed so fast and if it's not for the last bus, I would've spent more time with them..
Never mentioned any past, but they're the one who reminisce...
They take me back to the past where the 4 of us were in the same class.
Sitting at the last row feeling sleepy after recess.
Just like in sec1 when 3 of us went out, after 8 years we still can click..
I need them but they're no longer my best friends, we no longer meet everyday, just once a year maybe..
and tonight I miss all of them coz I hate where I am and what I'm feeling.
Can't seem to get past it. =(
Saturday, 6 November 2010
The Bubble Tea Effect
Everytime I drink Bubble Tea, I can't sleep. Basically it has the same effect as drinking coffee for me. Knowing this fact, I still drink it often coz I love it!
It's kind of Devina and my thing. We have been drinking bubble tea since Sec Schl and we both love it a lot. So today I went out with her and she wanted to drink. I contemplate and I know I will not be able to sleep, but I still drink in the end.
Then we went to Balestier Shaw Plaza to avoid the crowd in town.
Ended up watching The Town with Alvin and Egi.
Had late dinner at KFC at 9.30pm...
So here I am at 3.47am and WIDE AWAKE.
Lucky I have some company from my MAE frens.
Finally tried that Ps3 Moove thingy.
It was FUN~!! ^_^v
Had a nice, long chat on the hall15 corridor. =)
But there's a gaping hole in my heart wherever I go.
I think it's the inferiority I feel most of the time especially with regards to school work.
The heat is on and the pressure's rising.
The panic I feel gets worse every semester.
I pray that I can get through this semester alive.
I must push myself harder because I will not survive it like this.
T__T
It's kind of Devina and my thing. We have been drinking bubble tea since Sec Schl and we both love it a lot. So today I went out with her and she wanted to drink. I contemplate and I know I will not be able to sleep, but I still drink in the end.
Then we went to Balestier Shaw Plaza to avoid the crowd in town.
Ended up watching The Town with Alvin and Egi.
Had late dinner at KFC at 9.30pm...
So here I am at 3.47am and WIDE AWAKE.
Lucky I have some company from my MAE frens.
Finally tried that Ps3 Moove thingy.
It was FUN~!! ^_^v
Had a nice, long chat on the hall15 corridor. =)
But there's a gaping hole in my heart wherever I go.
I think it's the inferiority I feel most of the time especially with regards to school work.
The heat is on and the pressure's rising.
The panic I feel gets worse every semester.
I pray that I can get through this semester alive.
I must push myself harder because I will not survive it like this.
T__T
Wednesday, 3 November 2010
Today's a total failure.
Lab was okay, but I can't seem to focus.
Wasting my time!
Went to run but not very well too, not satisfied.
Dislike running on track coz it's boring. haha.
Much prefer the ntu route.
Still the same, feeling wise.
I hope I get over this quickly.
Tonight I listen to Korean songs..
HAHA, nononoono, this can't be happening..
I won't be swept by the K-mania...
But I must admit, their dance is good.
It makes me wanna wanna wanna dance.. o[^_^]o
"coz baby like to dance in the dark.. " - Lady Gaga.
Lab was okay, but I can't seem to focus.
Wasting my time!
Went to run but not very well too, not satisfied.
Dislike running on track coz it's boring. haha.
Much prefer the ntu route.
Still the same, feeling wise.
I hope I get over this quickly.
Tonight I listen to Korean songs..
HAHA, nononoono, this can't be happening..
I won't be swept by the K-mania...
But I must admit, their dance is good.
It makes me wanna wanna wanna dance.. o[^_^]o
"coz baby like to dance in the dark.. " - Lady Gaga.
Monday, 1 November 2010
一个风和日丽的下午
I don't know why I feel very weak today.
I feel like my body can disintegrate anytime.
My head too, it is so heavy and muddled.
No mood to run since Nike. Did not run for a week!
On Sunday my friend asked me to run and so I went.
At 8am! On the track!
But I ran without my usual passion..
Jogged around a while..
Feeling lethargic the whole day..
And it continues today..
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!
Angry at myself >_<
I heard about this guy who's a total playboy from my friend and I find it very irritating.
How can a guy confess to so many girls and chase many girls at one time?
One, is he really too free?
Two, it is such a disrespect to the girls.
Anw, that's just my thought. Maybe it is common and I am too old-fashioned to understand... hahaha...
I feel like my body can disintegrate anytime.
My head too, it is so heavy and muddled.
No mood to run since Nike. Did not run for a week!
On Sunday my friend asked me to run and so I went.
At 8am! On the track!
But I ran without my usual passion..
Jogged around a while..
Feeling lethargic the whole day..
And it continues today..
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!
Angry at myself >_<
I heard about this guy who's a total playboy from my friend and I find it very irritating.
How can a guy confess to so many girls and chase many girls at one time?
One, is he really too free?
Two, it is such a disrespect to the girls.
Anw, that's just my thought. Maybe it is common and I am too old-fashioned to understand... hahaha...
“我寂寞寂寞就好，这时候 谁都 别来 安慰打扰，
就让我一个人 痛到 受不了，想到 快疯掉，
死不了 就还好。
你真的不用来我回忆里微笑，
我就不相信 我会 笨到 忘不了，赖着 不放掉，
人本来 就 寂寞的，
借来的 都 该还掉，
我终会 把你 戒掉。”
就让我一个人 痛到 受不了，想到 快疯掉，
死不了 就还好。
你真的不用来我回忆里微笑，
我就不相信 我会 笨到 忘不了，赖着 不放掉，
人本来 就 寂寞的，
借来的 都 该还掉，
我终会 把你 戒掉。”
Heard this song a couple of days ago and I love it.
Repeat ON. =p
My friend said he listen already he will feel emo. HAHA.
For me it's comforting.
Although it don't suit my mood now, I am VERY certain in some future I will need this song badly..
This Sunday's a mixed emotion.
Some memories you can try to repress, but once triggered, you'll be surprised by what you can feel.
Tonight reminds me of 2 years ago..
Taken by surprise, I almost cried right then and there.
Maybe it's because I am emotional, or just that so many feelings are provoked by the sudden outburst of memories at that instant..
Like how delusional I was, and looking at how the situation is the same now...
Just another history repeating itself for the Nth time.
E-Learning this week.! Yeay, don't like attending lect now.
I must learn to be by myself again!!
And I need to adjust fast.
I bought my ticket, lalala...
PERSEVERE till 22DECEMBER!!!
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