It's like a rolercoaster ride of emotion,
Filled with unsaid devotion.
If it was not for technicality,
maybe we'll be for real in reality.
Our similarities is what makes us click,
yet our differences doesn't make me tick.
I will fight for you if there's any other way,
but I have no choice and I surrender today.
Rest assured the angst I feel for you,
is not because I hate you.
In the end everything dissolves,
I miss you it's true.
Tuesday, 26 May 2009
Monday, 18 May 2009
''Embracing life''
In my new resolution to curb my emo-ness, I decide to see the half-full glass...
So, even though I'm sick, I'm enjoying it..
Here's why...
THE PROs OF BEING SICK:
(I'm really sick to be doing this list)
1. I love my husky voice due to my sore throat.
2. I lost my appetite, everything taste bland. (way to go BMI 17!!)
3. Eat, sleep, lying around all day like a pig and still I'll lose weight.
4. My brain is pounding so hard it drowns the sound of my worry and frustration.
5. You can't smell anything when your nose is blocked this bad; no food can seduce me by smell and no smelly stuff can ruin my day. ^_^
See, many benefits of being sick... LOLs
But I do hope I get better soon lest suspected for carrying the flu.
I'm contemplating whether to take up the job, my aunt sms me again this morning, she said she can send me home if I can find someone to drop me off.
HOw??? Aghhhh, how how how??
I'm weighing my option still..
So, even though I'm sick, I'm enjoying it..
Here's why...
THE PROs OF BEING SICK:
(I'm really sick to be doing this list)
1. I love my husky voice due to my sore throat.
2. I lost my appetite, everything taste bland. (way to go BMI 17!!)
3. Eat, sleep, lying around all day like a pig and still I'll lose weight.
4. My brain is pounding so hard it drowns the sound of my worry and frustration.
5. You can't smell anything when your nose is blocked this bad; no food can seduce me by smell and no smelly stuff can ruin my day. ^_^
See, many benefits of being sick... LOLs
But I do hope I get better soon lest suspected for carrying the flu.
I'm contemplating whether to take up the job, my aunt sms me again this morning, she said she can send me home if I can find someone to drop me off.
HOw??? Aghhhh, how how how??
I'm weighing my option still..
Friday, 15 May 2009
I've had enough of people coming into my life and walking out of it as they please.
"All around me are familiar faces
worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere,
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression,
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow,
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very, mad world..."
Wednesday, 13 May 2009
Updates.
It's been almost 2 weeks since I came back.
Not much fun here, mostly staying at home.
Kindda in a bad mood for not able to go as I please. =(
Ok, actually been in a very BAD mood.
Trying to be happy tho', keep thinking of hall life and feel so much better.
Trying not to think of going back tho'.
Real mood killer! =S hmmpf.
Anyway, start exercising again!!
Finally!!! I think I'm addicted to exercise.
As in, 2 weeks without exercise gives me headache and my whole body just don't feel right.
Then start to worry about weight again. Duh..
Tho' I so happy coz my BMI was actually not so BAD. hehe.
Been swimming these 2 days.
Glad that the pool's no longer heated, the water was really cold and since less people can stand the cold, the pool was empty!=D
Decide to rest today and swim tmrw, MUST~!
Motivate me!! Been doing the same laps and same timing for so long..
Have to target myself..!! 50 laps here I come. lols.
This is coz I'm really too free already.
My aunt did offer me to teach again in her English tuiton centre for kids.
I really want to, even tho' with no pay, but there's no transportation and..
well, I don't know how to face him if I meet him again..
What about my resolution to cook here?
Been so lazy, in the end, my brother cook for me so many times.
He lah, bought an external stove, so BIG, I don't know how to on..
Shall take a pic and post it here later...
=S With him arnd, the house is much cleaner and tidier, he'll make a much better housewife than me, got me worried that his wife is gonna bully him...
He's really too nice a guy!!! Never mind, I'll be his evil sister, I'll protect him!!! o(.'')=o
^_^ v
Not much fun here, mostly staying at home.
Kindda in a bad mood for not able to go as I please. =(
Ok, actually been in a very BAD mood.
Trying to be happy tho', keep thinking of hall life and feel so much better.
Trying not to think of going back tho'.
Real mood killer! =S hmmpf.
Anyway, start exercising again!!
Finally!!! I think I'm addicted to exercise.
As in, 2 weeks without exercise gives me headache and my whole body just don't feel right.
Then start to worry about weight again. Duh..
Tho' I so happy coz my BMI was actually not so BAD. hehe.
Been swimming these 2 days.
Glad that the pool's no longer heated, the water was really cold and since less people can stand the cold, the pool was empty!=D
Decide to rest today and swim tmrw, MUST~!
Motivate me!! Been doing the same laps and same timing for so long..
Have to target myself..!! 50 laps here I come. lols.
This is coz I'm really too free already.
My aunt did offer me to teach again in her English tuiton centre for kids.
I really want to, even tho' with no pay, but there's no transportation and..
well, I don't know how to face him if I meet him again..
What about my resolution to cook here?
Been so lazy, in the end, my brother cook for me so many times.
He lah, bought an external stove, so BIG, I don't know how to on..
Shall take a pic and post it here later...
=S With him arnd, the house is much cleaner and tidier, he'll make a much better housewife than me, got me worried that his wife is gonna bully him...
He's really too nice a guy!!! Never mind, I'll be his evil sister, I'll protect him!!! o(.'')=o
^_^ v
Monday, 11 May 2009
Doggie
Interesting day for me.
I'm still in my new phase of easy-going-ness where I will accept almost every invitation from people.
My brother ask me eat, I will say ok, he ask me do this do that I will do.
Today, my dad asked me to acompany him to see a dog show nearby and I was so lazy, so don't want to go coz I thought it's going to be so boring.
The ''show'' was no show, it was so boring.
But in the end I was excited by myself, looking at the many breeds and taking photos of them.
Kindda start to love dogs again.
<-- this dog caught my eyes at the entrance and it sparked my hyperinterest coz u know what...
CAN you see the similarities between the 2??
I met a real life version of my cute stuff toy dog. ^_^ v.
These 2 days been eating avocado until I quite sick of it now. hahaha..
On another note, errr...
Ignored by someone, kindda sad. I guess I shouldn't feel anything but I feel sad.
I wish I can take back some of my words, or some of my actions...
Does everything has to come to this always?
If this continues, then I guess I won't try to bridge the gap and I guess this is it..
Told you all are the same...
I wish to be proven wrong.
So SAD.
I'm still in my new phase of easy-going-ness where I will accept almost every invitation from people.
My brother ask me eat, I will say ok, he ask me do this do that I will do.
Today, my dad asked me to acompany him to see a dog show nearby and I was so lazy, so don't want to go coz I thought it's going to be so boring.
The ''show'' was no show, it was so boring.
But in the end I was excited by myself, looking at the many breeds and taking photos of them.
Kindda start to love dogs again.
<-- this dog caught my eyes at the entrance and it sparked my hyperinterest coz u know what... 
CAN you see the similarities between the 2??
I met a real life version of my cute stuff toy dog. ^_^ v.
These 2 days been eating avocado until I quite sick of it now. hahaha..
On another note, errr...
Ignored by someone, kindda sad. I guess I shouldn't feel anything but I feel sad.
I wish I can take back some of my words, or some of my actions...
Does everything has to come to this always?
If this continues, then I guess I won't try to bridge the gap and I guess this is it..
Told you all are the same...
I wish to be proven wrong.
So SAD.
Sunday, 10 May 2009
Thursday, 7 May 2009
so and so..
So called Spring Cleaning today at my house. Haha..
The 3 of us move around furniture, clean arnd and tidy up the house.
Really wanna personalise my room but I don't see a way to..
Shall take a pic and upload and ask people to help me come up with ideas.
Hmmpf. Finished reading the book yesterday.
Getting worried of getting bored. =p
Been using a lot of internet these 2 days.
Must find activities. But what?
I think I'm getting lazier.
Oh no~!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The 3 of us move around furniture, clean arnd and tidy up the house.
Really wanna personalise my room but I don't see a way to..
Shall take a pic and upload and ask people to help me come up with ideas.
Hmmpf. Finished reading the book yesterday.
Getting worried of getting bored. =p
Been using a lot of internet these 2 days.
Must find activities. But what?
I think I'm getting lazier.
Oh no~!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, 3 May 2009
vindicated__.
I told myself so. Guys are effing jerks. I ruin a perfectly good relationship, just like that. So many times. I don't know how to assess the situation well. Oh well~ it's his choice, what do I care? Everyone just stop asking me abt him, I don't know anything anymore.
Been in a bad mood here. I'm home, but..
Maybe coz I'm gone for long, not used to being here.
Or is it coz I was too happy in Sg? And it's such a bore here that I find myself wanting so many things but I don't know how to go about getting it.
So much desire to do stuff, yet I don't seem to be able to do any of it.
WHy oh Why?
Sobs.
Maybe, just maybe, I really lost the will to do anything.
Been in a bad mood here. I'm home, but..
Maybe coz I'm gone for long, not used to being here.
Or is it coz I was too happy in Sg? And it's such a bore here that I find myself wanting so many things but I don't know how to go about getting it.
So much desire to do stuff, yet I don't seem to be able to do any of it.
WHy oh Why?
Sobs.
Maybe, just maybe, I really lost the will to do anything.
Friday, 1 May 2009
home.
It has been a meaningful 1 week.
I'm referring to the week after exams.
THANKS FOR EVERYONE WHO SPENT TIME WITH ME!!!!
IT'S REALLY REALLY FUN!!!!! =D hoho..
Never played so hard in my life!! =p
Let me briefly recap:
after lifesc on Thurs I went to Bugis. Stayed over at fren's hse.
Friday : Went to watch 17again.
Saturday : Bugis, FUnan, bought earphone, cityhall...
Sunday : Vivo..
Monday : watch friday 13th and dinner at Sushi Tei..
Tuesday : lunch at Quad, bought my lappy in orc, dinner at Food Republic..
Wed : JP, Kbox, supper, NTU tour...
Thurs : Breakfast at can13. Tanah Merah met my fren who's so nice to send me to Changi..
Picked up by my lovely bro, then home.
Slept 8pm till 10am, haha, record!!
NEVER sleep from wed9am till thurs 8pm. NICE!
Haha..
But now, I have to adjust to the life here.
I love my home, but there's so downside too..
I feel a bit down, mayb coz I have been having too much fun in sg, now it's just I wish I can have more of that instead of being alone and can't do whatever I like here.
BUT I met my bed. Reunion at last =)
This few days I don't want to think much..
That is about weight, wad to do this 3 months, future, and other stuff that's always worrying and making me so stress and sad.
I want to rest, sleep, eat!! =p
Gotta lose the weight later >_< *grimace*
I'm referring to the week after exams.
THANKS FOR EVERYONE WHO SPENT TIME WITH ME!!!!
IT'S REALLY REALLY FUN!!!!! =D hoho..
Never played so hard in my life!! =p
Let me briefly recap:
after lifesc on Thurs I went to Bugis. Stayed over at fren's hse.
Friday : Went to watch 17again.
Saturday : Bugis, FUnan, bought earphone, cityhall...
Sunday : Vivo..
Monday : watch friday 13th and dinner at Sushi Tei..
Tuesday : lunch at Quad, bought my lappy in orc, dinner at Food Republic..
Wed : JP, Kbox, supper, NTU tour...
Thurs : Breakfast at can13. Tanah Merah met my fren who's so nice to send me to Changi..
Picked up by my lovely bro, then home.
Slept 8pm till 10am, haha, record!!
NEVER sleep from wed9am till thurs 8pm. NICE!
Haha..
But now, I have to adjust to the life here.
I love my home, but there's so downside too..
I feel a bit down, mayb coz I have been having too much fun in sg, now it's just I wish I can have more of that instead of being alone and can't do whatever I like here.
BUT I met my bed. Reunion at last =)
This few days I don't want to think much..
That is about weight, wad to do this 3 months, future, and other stuff that's always worrying and making me so stress and sad.
I want to rest, sleep, eat!! =p
Gotta lose the weight later >_< *grimace*
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