Yesterday was a great day!
Taken day off from sucky work.
Don't have to fear getting pulled at 4/5 (always!!) and going home late.
Woken up at 11:30 am, it is amazing how sufficient sleep can affect your mood greatly.
Feeling very hungry, decided to eat buffet at Seoul Garden at Taka.
The last time I went there was for my sweet 17, 7 years ago.
Not much has changed, probably just that I can't eat as much anymore. =p
Then went to drink coffee to boost myself up.
Got home, get ready and then went to NTU.
Was feeling lazy to run, especially having to travel so far unlike last time when I was still staying in hall.
It was 6+pm when I start to slow jog from 179 Bus Stop, going to my usual route.
I pace myself telling myself to relax, to go slow, no pressure.
The weather was amazing, it was clear with wind blowing.
After a while I start to get into the run like I used to.
Going past places that have memories; there was my Hall 13 level 7, there was Hall 15 Block 72 where I used to squat, there was Hall 5 where my favourite flower bloom and I can smell its fragrance, there was in front of Innovation Centre where I fell down and scrape my knee badly, still got the scars to remind me too, there was Hall 7 where I used to visit my friend's room at night, there was the deadly SBS slope that was always the last hurdle before I finish one round..
Accompanied by my new ipod nano, listening to radio and songs, nothing else but me and my music, it was the first time I feel like the old me in a long time..
The old me that can smile while running, enjoying the road, the surrounding..
The trees, the moon, the passerby and other running people.
And I have a goal! I wanted to run 4 rounds this time.
In my year 1 I ran 1 round of NTU for the first time,
In my 2nd year I ran 2 rounds,
In my 3rd year I ran 3 rounds,
In my 4th year I got complacent and didn't run 4 rounds like I wanted.
So even though it has been a year overdue, I finally did it!
4 rounds non-stop jog (except for 1 drink stop).
I feel really tired, yet glad I did it!
=)
I guess I really miss having a goal, a motivation.
When I was in NTU I was stressed, I was sad, I was depressed at times, but I have a drive.
I wanted to finish my 4 years with great improvements.
I wanted to get good grades. I worked hard for it.
And when I got it at the end, I feel so happy.
Now in work, I don't feel any drive.
No motivation, no eagerness to learn.
The people sucks, I can't work along them for any longer.
Yet I am bound by my 3 years bond, and have nowhere else better to go.
Sigh.
