31st July.

The clock's ticking nearing the deadly arrival of the 11th august. I so don't want to go back. Everytime I think about school, my mind goes blank as if rejecting even the thought of it. Some might say I'm crazy for going back on the first day of school. But they really have no idea how much resent I have to living in hall. It sucks. I just hate to use the bathroom where it's no privacy and maybe even disgusting sometimes. I hate the fact I have to stand the humidity of Singapore without aircon and offing the light to spare myself from the added heat from the lightbulb. I hate to climb 7 storey up and down to get my laundry and having my clothes drenched when I hung it outside and it rains suddenly. I now hate eating alone. Living alone. Studying alone. I feel so empty everytime I came back from Bdg. Sometimes I wonder why do I have to bear with such condition when I have just the perfect, absolutely perfect house here. What's my aim? I don't like engineering, it never was my first choice. If I'm really pursuing something I love, it might be a comfort. But even studying is a chore. So why am I there and what should I do? Sigh. It's ok, just let me complain coz in the end I still have to go through all of it all over again. Sem1/Sem2 will repeat itself in Sem3? I have no energy left to even care.