It's the end of another chapter of my holiday. Bali trip was 5 days and it felt as if it's long but not as in dreading-it-to-end kind of long. I'm really lucky to have my friend there and i really am grateful and thankful for his companion and help. I can't say this enough coz I really don't know what else to do to express my gratitude. Honestly, if he's not there, it would've been a disaster.
As I always say, ''There's always a first time for everything." Well here's my first time going on holiday with a friend, and I can say I'm feeling repressed for the last few days I was there. But as my father said, "if you do something, then do it willingly, otherwise don't do it and feel forced." This is really another personality problem that I have which is I will give in, be nice, even though my heart is not willing. So I ended up feeling forced and complaining about it. It's bad coz after I complain, I feel like I'm backstabbing the person, yet if the situation presents itself again, my action will be the same. I will almost always try to placate the person by forcing myself. Why must I be such a masochist? I'm hurting myself, burdening myself. I see others who'll just outwardly voice out their opinion, unhappiness towards someone irritating but I just can't.
Recuperating at home today and now I'm feeling very sleepy at 10pm which is a weird occurence for me. haha. I shall continue tmrw!
To be continued...
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