and the ranting goes on...

Has my saying : "this is the worst day of my life" lost it's impact and become the new norm?
I need to open up my vocab selection I guess.

NTU has put me in a new kind of low in life, yesh, it's really testing the boundary of my breaking point I think...

Today's 2 CAs really can't make it. Enough said.
Knowing that it's gonna be wrong and being right about it is painful.

I'm feeling worthless, stupid, lonely, unhappy, no drive for life.
I keep trying to cheer myself up, and ntu keeps bringing me down.
Struggling day by day, going through it with dread.
I keep trying to smile and suddenly another thing brings me down.
I keep trying to catch up to know that when I move forward 1 step I'm 10 feet behind instead of closing the gap.

I HATE lab, every week I drag my feet to 3 hrs of torture and now it's over, but I can't be happy, coz it's gonna be all over again!!!

I HATE hall, dragging my feet back everyday wishing I can be anywhere but here.

Lectures are place for me to escape, to stone coz time seems to be flying by when I go from lecture to lecture. Then I realise I've been so behind in everything and people are saying to me : "What you've been doing?"

Watching dramas? My addiction is due to the lack of social activities, and it really let me pass my time here in hall. It makes me forget, got me lost in the plot, of whatever movie it is, let me dream of a life that's anywhere but here..

So I ask myself, can I call it life when I keep wishing for time just to pass? What is the point then?
Sometimes I feel I've got friends who cares abt me, then another second I find myself feeling so lonely, so hollow, that's how I get emo.

wanna scream, wanna bang the wall, wanna escape, wanna go back, wanna disappear.