somehow even though it's the holiday, my mind's not at peace.
sigh. i need to relax. my mind refuse to cooperate.
i'm trying my best to socialise eventho what i need now is a familiar friendly face.
to be honest i've been quite disappointed for a while now for the way some treat me.
waw, my blog's so deserted, i think it's sad, maybe i should shut it down.
shall give it a real thought.

anw, saturday's coming!!!
i'm hoping for a happy time with relatives, but i can envisage the awkwardness where i'm left alone at the side.
maybe it's my paranoia, but it's exactly bad experiences like those that scares me of these events.
first, there's my apppearance, 2nd there's the crowd, 3rd there's always that unforeseen circumstance where i'll make a fool of myself?

watched 2 movies on dvd; state of play and vanilla sky.
i like the first, but the latter was so-so.

don't want to face stars!! i'm petrified it's going to be like last sem!!
2 core modules i couldn't get!!
plus i really need my labS to be any other day than monday.
i'm having such a bad feeling that ntu's going to screw me like always,
giving me a hard time on everything.
twist and turn and screw me all around!! I HATE IT.
Lady luck please help me this thurs at1.30pm sharp.
allow my internet to be fast, my timing to be accurate and the rest to be slowpokes and let them suffer my bad luck for a change..
okay, i sound so bad, maybe i'll get twice more screwed.. =S

haven't swam again, or exercise for that matter.
hmm, tmrw and the next day i foresee no exercise again, gonna be a pig ready for slaughter on sat.