recess sem 5

It's the 5th Recess and it's only the 2nd time that I haven't gone back home.
Wow, got me thinking of my Sem1 when I didn't go back..

On Friday, Check, Eric and I went to 313 to collect our race pack.
I thought I was going alone because I had lab till 430 but they waited for me until 3. ^_^
So happy I don't have to travel alone. =D
Then Jy was there and I walked around with her for a while waiting for Devina to come.
And so I intro Jy to Devina..
I don't know why is it that I always intro my fren to each other while they don't really do that with me.. hmm..

Anw, I had a very long one-sided heart talk with Devina. I unburden the accumulated incidents that I have kept and told her from end to end. And I thought I told myself I wasn't going to share with her all these. Well, she's my best friend. Even in her own nonchalant, "cold-blooded" manner, she's still the best ('',)v

I had cheesecake that night!

Then Saturday's Ubin trip was great. I got Ty to travel the super long way to Tampines and that's why I go. I really hate to travel alone.. The cycling was great and I was dead tired. at 12midnight Jy fetched me to go comet searching and star gazing and I regretted coming.

First, I needed to wake up early the next day and I'll be a trouble to not be able to stay long. Second, I wanted to come coz it sounded FUN. There're girls going and after being the only girl again cycling I think it's FUN to have some girl time. In the end I felt left out again. I don't know why sometimes I feel close with them but other times I feel that they talk about things I don't know and don't bother to put me in the convo. I don't mind listening to things I don't know, just include me. As in I'm there, acknowledge my presence, that's all. When I talk I feel no response and I felt like a fool. >_<

Slept at 4. Woke up at 840. Surprisingly, I don't feel sleepy.. I just felt a bit tired but it was a good day.. I met my Auntie Linda. =D I miss her so so much. She's always been there for me all these year, and she cared for me even though she has seen the worst part of me. All my ugly side she knows and she's still nice to me. She guided me through some of my toughest time and she's done so much for me. ^_^ I must go to her church more often! But school and distance made it impossible =(.

Anyway I went to her church that day and more nostalgic moment. I want to play the drummm.. awww, and the piano... When can I master a musical instrument properly? GRRR, angry at self. =(

Then went to JP for dessert again with Sam.

The sinful mudpie chocolate cake with vanilla ice-cream.

Oh yeah, I acted worse than when I get tipsy. Literally drunk on sugar.

Got so high and all. Haha, lucky only Sam saw it. =p

And today's back to monotone life of forcing myself to study and failing miserable.

I need help!!!!!!!!!

And company...

And discipline..

And motivation..

My life feels like a messed up jigsaw puzzle.

I have to piece the pieces back together again.