I finally get the word that I've been searching for these last 2 weeks; DISAPPOINTED.
Yeah, not angry, not sad, no regret.
Just old, plain disappointment.
I have fought hard enough here to bring up my marks, and I want to really understand and actually like what I studied.
But the opportunity that seems to be only flawed by distance was actually a joke altogether.
First they want to ostracize me to another plant.
Then, after 1 week of unrest, I am actually spared mercifully and is to stay where I am.
I was glad, I was thankful and I want to do my best.
But I am so wrong footed all the time.

And this makes me think that all my effort is going down to the drain and I will be wasting 5 months of my life.

I wanted to learn, and when I am deprived of the chance is the moment I realise how precious all my education was.

It's not that I wanted to be a goody-goody, but I don't want to waste my time...