Wedding Season

2013 is officially the start of Wedding season..
Everyone around me seems to be getting married..
My brother, my primary school friend, and just last week, my ex-best friend got married!

I saw the pictures on FB and I wasn't invited :(
Can't blame her, we haven't spoken to each other for years..
Our last encounter was in NTU when we accidentally bumped into each other..
And she got married to a guy I once had a crush on in Secondary school..
And.. And.. At that time she knew I liked him and even try to help me get close to him..
Typical high school drama?
Back then they knew each other much longer before I met him..
They serve in the same church, and was in the same cell group for some time..
I joined in then because my other best friend started to go the church and joined that cell group too..
I liked him for his boyish charm, his ability to play sport and music!
It was a full-fledged crazy teenage crush and it was fun..
M/y ex-best friend wanted to help me but even then I knew they were very close..
I asked her whether she liked him too and she denied fervently.
We were so close, even though we were from different school.
We hung out on weekends, she even stayed over at my house a few times and played/studied together in my house many times..
Even now, as our friendship has became estranged, I still smile thinking of all the good memories we once shared.. :)

She was a kind person. She saw me cry when I told her stories about my family and other stuff.
So when did it all end?
Well suddenly we grew apart..
I am not sure is it because of something I did, or something I said?
I still am not sure even up till now..
I have tried to get in touch with her again and again over time, but it ended with nothing more but pleasantries.
My friend said maybe it's because that was when she and that guy I used to like get together.
That she felt awkward? Well, that could be it..
But I think my crush wasn't that serious and she shouldn't feel that way..
Anyway, what's happened can't be rewind.

I am just glad that now I can smile thinking of our sweet friendship.
I am also happy with my life now.
I do complain a lot, feel inferior a lot..
But I have support from my existing friends.
Even at work, I made a few great friends that made my life happier..
I should really be grateful for the opportunities given to me..

And finally, my day will arrive too! Just not in the near future!!
Now I am happy to browse through others' wedding, gathering idea on how I would like mine to be when that day came!

P.S: LAST WORK WEEK OF 2013!! ~