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What the hell is wrong with everyone. It's like they're trying to make me feel bad on purpose?
What good is it to everyone to make me feel sad? Grovelling in my suffering? What? WHAT? WHAT!!!!!!!!

Nothing is ever fair. I'm always so unlucky.
I don't get it. What is this? What is wrong with me that is just simply so bad?

Went for so many interview, so tired, waiting waiting waiting. Give it my all, I thought it went Good. In the end, it's just a lie. She can get the post. HOW? I don't know. That's the unfairness of it all. She doesn't need that point so badly, she've 9alrd, with another 5 and 1, it's 15!! enough to secure her own room. What about me? PR, 7?! No benefit after so much pain I go through to get that PR?? I need that 9 points and I think I deserve it. I deserve a chance at least to prove myself but noone's going to give me. Why? Why? She already have aircon room, she has scholarship, she's rich, yet she gets what she wanted just like that. She got all the attention, she got everything. ME? I got this room mate, I have to clean the room, have to put up with living in 7th storey without lift, without good facilities. I so have enough of this.

A new start, I told myself. In the end, it never gets better. People hurt me, just like that, without any thoughts of my feelings whatsoever. It's like what did I do to deserve this? I'm not inferior than them. But all this is making me doubt myself, dropping my confidence even more which I never thought could happen. All they seem to care is themselves. SELFISH people. I have to care about them why? While they don't give a shit about my well-being. I'm always being ignored, left behind. Yes, they're smart. Just come to me when there's noone else. I thought this is the end of my tears, yet I feel like crying more than ever. I need you my friends. But they're all gone you see. Nothing stay. NOone stays. Everyone leaves. I hate everyone, I hate everything! I hate how this stupid system works! I hate this unfairness.!