I know that at this time where I'm playing chasing with time, I shouldn't think of anything other than sine, cosine, hyperbolic, impedance, konnichiwa, blackhole, otto-cycle and slider-crank. Yet the other day I was fb-ing, and I click on the fren's icon which I never do and I realise she's actually back.!! So I click and saw her wall... to be completely honest I felt sad, really2 depressed. That day was after the first disastrous paper.. I told you my somehow calmness need just a little emotional push to throw me off the edge. So then I saw our another fren and guess what? She wrote on her wall even though our mutual fren doesn't really update fb so often.. ANW, I was so tired and I can't sleep (yesh, just because of this small minute thing). So I suddenly have the urge to talk to someone, and I sms-ed her, and she called and I cried and she was so nice that she wanted to come over and in the end I went to her room. Can't say she's very symphathetic abt my situation. Rather, I got scolded. haha, but it's good. She sounded like my another fren in US that I miss terribly too. Blatant and both have the same carefree spirit that I'll die to have. How do I stop caring? Be emotionless? Life'll sure be 77777777x easier for me. I'm constantly burdening myself with nonsense. Yesh, nonsense. Like this panic attack I have when I can't study... I really can't wait for this week to be over.......

I miss my frens.. bad timing huh?
People are saying "don't think so much diana.."
"relax, diana.."

Strangely my only use of Hp is to listen to radio these days, haha, and I kindda like it this way.
Before when I was tracked every single moment by sms and getting called when I don't reply promptly or have to face his anger if I don't pick up his call, I detest the sound of the incoming msg or call. I'm glad for the quiet of my hp for once. It's a first!!! for everyone else who used to sms with me, once it stopped, I'll feel loss and start missing them... =)