It feels as if I'm wrong footed all the time.

When I'm being quiet, Why are you so quiet?
When I'm talkative, Why are you so noisy?
When I'm emo, Can't you be more positive?
When I'm happy, Why are you always so happy?

So I'm sad, depressed, and dejected.
Is this good enough for everyone?
I am not trying to please anyone.
I am trying to be the best of me so that maybe I can be a better person.
So I thought I've learnt from my mistakes and made it better.
But the truth is, I am still trapped inside the fear of rejection.
No matter how I tried, well, some thing can't be forced.
I know it, but accepting it is another matter altogether.

Unappreciated, I felt that way in this family at times.
Unwanted, that's how I feel in general sometimes.
But I put on my mask of smile and say: "I'm okayy!!"
=)